Monday 1/31/22 – Consciousness

Dear Lord, Master Creator, King of the Universe, Maker of Heaven and earth, thank You! Thank you for this day, for this time of study, for this time of rest, for this time with my family today. Thank You for waking me up. Thank You for not giving up on me. Thank You for leading, guiding and directing me. Thank You for providing me knowledge, wisdom and discernment. Thank You for the keys to the Kingdom of Heaven and for fulfilling Your promises; those who seek shall find, knock and the door will be opened, we shall know the truth and the truth will set us free. Please be with me as I write this post as the day is coming to an end. Help me to know what to say and to be efficient so that I may spend more time with my wife tonight and reading, before my week begins. I ask all of these things in Your mighty, precious and powerful name, Amen.

Consciousness: the state of being awake and aware of one’s surroundings. Believe it or not, more craziness since the last post. This journey of spiritual awakening that I’m on was perfectly described to me by a friend this last week, it is a treasure hunt. It is one of the most exhilarating, fluid and ongoing experiences I’ve ever had. I want to know it all but at the same time I don’t want to know it all because I don’t want this journey to end. What does one do when they finally find the buried treasure? Sure, they may enjoy the treasure and the comfort that the treasure provides but the thrill of the hunt ceases at that time, doesn’t it? I’m on a journey to better understand who I am, not who I’ve become but who I truly am, who my Creator made me to be. I think it’s been mentioned before but this journey began mid 2020 for me, when I stopped accepting the mainstream narrative, started asking questions and started doing my own research. Has it all been sunshine and rainbows? Not even close, I’ve run up so hard against walls that were built up in my mind by this world, by the mainstream media, society, family, friends, schools and churches. It hurts, I didn’t want to find out that almost everything I’ve been taught has been an illusion of a system that has been put in place to keep us from learning the truth, the system in place reminds me of one of my wife’s favorite books, THE GIVER. I’m sure if you’ve found this and are reading this, whoever you are, you know what I’m talking about. Cognitive dissonance, if you have never heard of this word before, it may be time to understand. Cognitive dissonance: the state of having inconsistent thoughts, beliefs, or attitudes, especially as relating to behavioral decisions and attitude change. Now, my definition of cognitive dissonance, from my experience: when you are researching a subject and find something that goes against what you’ve been taught, something so ingrained in yourself that the very thought of it not being 100% true wrecks you. You question, you search other sources to try and prove it wrong, you cry, you don’t understand but at the same time, there is something inside you that knows what’s been revealed to you is truth. Sometimes you have to back off your research for days/weeks to let everything settle within you. I’ve heard Sam Harris state that there are different ways to open your consciousness. Some choose phschadelic drugs but that’s too risky for me, Mr. Harris describes that path as strapping yourself to a rocket, you have no idea where you’re going but you’re going there fast. I choose a form of mediation, Mr. Harris describes this path as slow and steady, like raising the sail on a sailboat. I personally enjoy this path as it may take me longer to reach the same destination but I have plenty of time to enjoy the journey, take in the scenery, expect nothing and try to notice everything. I am grateful that I’ve found meditation, it allows to me to look in rather than out. If the Kingdom of God is within us, shouldn’t we be looking there? I personally have been able to accomplish something I never thought possible, I can quiet my mind. I used to be so stressed out and I wore stress like a badge of courage. I’m busy, I was so busy, my mind was so busy and I didn’t even realize it because it was a slow gradual build and I couldn’t remember a time when my mind had been quiet. Each time I meditate, I try to empty more of myself, my ego (who I’ve become in the world and how the world identifies me) from me so that the Holy Spirit can fill me more. More than likely, if you’ve found this, you are already on your own journey of “waking up.” You most likely want so badly for your family, friends, co-workers and everyone to just wake up! I know, I’ve been there… why don’t they see it? They will see it, in their own time and then some will never see it, they will reject it. Remember, “it’s easier to fool people than to convince them that they have been fooled” -Mark Twain. I believe the best thing we can do is love them, right where they’re at and expect that God won’t leave them there. I believe by loving them we allow them to lower the walls that they put up to defend what it is that they believe and it gives the Holy Spirit an opportunity to work in them while their “guard” is down. I’ve said it before and He continually shows me, we can not win spiritual battles and wars with tools of this world, the battles and wars look nothing like physical battles and wars so don’t be surprised when you learn something that He reveals to you that doesn’t make sense when you look at it the way the world sees it. Ask God to open your eyes and your ears, give you eyes to see and ears to hear, then buckle up and be quiet, expect nothing but notice everything! Maybe winning souls isn’t our job? Loving people so the Holy Spirit can grab ahold of them, I believe that is the secret weapon to winning this war. Join the battle, love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul, mind and strength and love others the way God loves you, unconditionally. -A humble warrior in God’s army

“And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.” -John 8:32 ESV

Our Father, who art in Heaven, hallowed be thy Name. Thy Kingdom come, Thy will be done, on earth as it is in Heaven. Give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our debts as we forgive our debtors. Lead us not into temptation and deliver us from evil, for Thine is the Kingdom and the power and the glory forever and ever, Amen. -The Lord’s prayer

Published by humblespiritualwarrior

I'm learning how to follow after Jesus and what that looks like. I believe that I have the ultimate teacher leading me through this journey.

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