Monday 1/3/22 – Confusion

Dear Lord, thank You for this day! Thank You for this new year! Thank You for this time of reflection. Help me to live in the moment more this year. Help me to learn from my past but not to dwell on it. Help me to properly plan for the future but not to focus on it or be concerned for my future. I ask that You be present with me and help me to write today what it is that You want me to share. Your will be done Lord. If there is anything that I want to share today that You do not want me to share I ask that Your strike it from my memory. At the same time, if there is something that I don’t plan on sharing that You want me to share, make it burn within me until I have shared it here. I love You Lord my God, Master Creator, King of the Universe, Maker of Heaven and earth! Thank You for loving me. In Your holy, mighty & precious Name, Amen.

Well, a lot of things happened to finish off 2021 for me. Death seemed to be the theme to end the year. Three fairly major ones for me; first being notified at work by a good customer that she had recently lost her 49 year old husband, I just froze and I didn’t have anything to say, all I could say was that I was so sorry for her loss. This woman is a fellow believer and we’ve talked before about our faith and this time she mentioned that it was a 2 week struggle of her husband being in the hospital and they prayed and prayed and she said God was silent the whole time. While I was still processing this conversation I received a text from my mom about an hour later that my 89 year old grandfather that had recently started the process with Hospice was “actively” dying. I was thankful that I was able to spend time with him this last year since they moved from Pennsylvania to Florida, just down the road from us. I was also thankful that I was able to take the rest of the day off from work to spend time with him and our family. I was able to be there and comfort him at the end of his life and to be able to say some things that I wanted to be able to say to him before he passed. The third was one of my co-workers. Her young husband passed away, in his late 30s (which is where I am at in my life). A reminder that tomorrow is never promised. All of these events happened during a time in my life where I was struggling already with some of the truths I feel I’ve been led to. If what I have been led to is truth, these truths are not necessarily popular opinion for the belief system that I have been brought up to understand. I’ve been told that God, the Creator, is not the god of confusion but of truth. This statement is confusing to me because the truths I’m being led, while they are confusing at times, they seem to make more sense logically than what I’ve been taught and told. However, if we look at the Bible, the Kingdom of God that Jesus talks about does not look like the Kingdom that we were told everyone of that time was expecting. The Kingdom of God is the “upside down” Kingdom or at least it looks that way to the world because the enemy has us thinking that everything we see in this world is the right side up. I’m learning that I need to change my perspective and instead of looking at the Kingdom of God from the worlds perspective, I need to look at the world from the perspective of living in the Kingdom of God. I believe that this is what living in the world but not of the world may look like. Lord, I ask You that come in and take over, all I am, everything inside of me, I give it all to You, I surrender. Help me to look more like Jesus to others, help me to live more like Jesus, help me to love more like Jesus. Lord I ask that You give me Your vision, Your perspective for people. Help me to see others the way that You see them, Lord. I ask that You guide my heart and my mind and that You strike any negative thoughts of others from my mind. While it so easy to be negative and compare my strengths to others weaknesses, help me to only focus on others strengths and not compare myself or others to them, Lord. All of these things I ask in Your mighty, holy and precious Name, Amen. So maybe the world is what makes God seem confusing? While God is not the god of confusion, the people of this world have muddied the waters to make wrong look right. Our words have changed over time, symbols that were good throughout history have been perverted so that no one is willing to use the symbols because to the world they no longer mean what they were intended to. Perhaps you don’t believe me? Don’t take my word for it, do your own research, an easy one to find and start with is the swastika. Search what did the swastika mean before WWII? Once one starts to see how words and symbols change what they mean throughout our history, they can see how it is being used to fight against us in this ongoing spiritual war. I hope and pray that you will join us in this fight, educate yourself first, put on the full armor of God and join us on the battlefield of earth. Help us awaken those that are still in a “deep sleep.” Awaken those that have no idea that they’ve been programmed or that there is a battle even going on. Slip them the gentle red pills of truth. Help others to come to the realization on their own, no one likes to be forced awake. Still a lot going on inside my head that I need more time to process but for now, I will sign off. -A humble warrior in God’s army

“Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? And not one of them will fall to the ground apart from your Father. But even the hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not, therefore; you are of more value than many sparrows.” -Matthew 10:29-31 ESV

Our Father, who art in Heaven, hallowed be Thy Name. Thy Kingdom come, Thy will be done, on earth as it is in Heaven. Give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our debts as we forgive our debtors. Lead us not into temptation and deliver us from evil, for Thine is the Kingdom and the power and the glory forever and ever, Amen. – The Lords prayer

Published by humblespiritualwarrior

I'm learning how to follow after Jesus and what that looks like. I believe that I have the ultimate teacher leading me through this journey.

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