I’ve taken a bit of a break again, to process through all of the information I find myself constantly diving into and to spend time with my family. I am trying to learn to live more in the present. I realize I can not change the past and there’s no reason to worry about the future if I can learn to align with my higher self and make the decisions that line me up to fulfill God’s will in my life rather than following my selfish desires that leave me feeling alone, ashamed and further away from me being able to be aware of God’s presence in my life. This journey started with being able to look back on my life and see God’s presence over the course of years, then I was able to see His presence when looking back over a couple of weeks and now I’m hovering between daily and hourly being able to see His work in my life. There seems to be more “coincidences” the more I pray and build a relationship with my God, the Master Creator and King of the Universe. This certainly has been a wild ride and it feels like it’s only just begun. I’ve had many ideas for subjects to journal about during my brief hiatus, subjects like history, frequency, energy, normalcy, etc. Upon reflection of these ideas I feel like I can encompass all of those subjects in this one entry. We don’t know what we don’t know. We can only conceive what is that we allow ourselves to perceive. I only know my story, your story may be completely different. I was taught throughout my life what to think, I was not encouraged to learn how to think (if I was I surely didn’t understand it). Everything I thought I knew I had been taught by my parents, my friends, my school, my church, television programs, movies, etc. My parents didn’t intentionally teach me what to think but they didn’t know any different because they also were not encouraged to learn how to think. My story is that I was taught what to think and if I were to have a thought that went against the narratives in my life, it would be quickly brushed aside and I would be pushed back on the path of what to think. This may not be exactly how it happened but it is the way I perceive that it happened as I look back on my life. I have begun a journey of freeing my mind and looking into all kinds of subjects regarding science, religion and conspiracies, to name a few. While everything that I feel like I’m currently learning may not be 100% true I have learned to question the narratives in my life regarding most subjects as I’m pretty sure nothing that I thought I knew was 100% true either. What happens when one becomes aware that there is a voice inside of them that they thought was their own and that voice has been guiding them throughout their life to keep them living in a lower frequency so that their negative energy can be sucked out through the energy vampires that are all throughout their life? The process of this realization will also make one aware to those same type of voices that are inside of other people, the voice of the enemy that has come to steal, kill and destroy. On the flipside, there is another voice that we can learn to hear from. How do we learn to hear from the other voice, the sound of a low whisper that we’re told Elijah was able to hear? Be still and know that He is God, right? How do we get to the point where we can be still in the hustle and bustle of our crazy lives? How do we get to the point where we can be aware of the thoughts that are running our life? For me, it was through practicing the art of meditation. I had several concerns when I started to look into and practice meditation and mindfulness. I soon learned that the concerns I had were due to more of what I had been taught to think. “Christians don’t mediate, that’s an Eastern thing” or” Christians meditate on scripture but it’s nothing like the Eastern style of meditation.” I put God at the center of my meditation experience and dipped a toe in the meditation pool, now I swim in that pool frequently. At first I was unable to quiet the thoughts in my brain and didn’t expect that I would ever be able to but the more I look into the practice, and the more often I engage in the practice, the more I learn about myself. I’ve spent my whole life looking out and now that I’m looking in, I’ve started on a whole new part of my journey which is self discovery and self mastery. I’m a long way away from where I want to be but at the same time I am so thankful that God met me right where I was at in my life but He didn’t leave me there. Now that I’ve been made aware that God is always present, I also know there are attacks that come from the enemy and when the attacks come I used to rebuke the enemy in the name of Jesus Christ and felt that his minions left my presence. I had an interesting experience this last week where I felt there was a presence of the enemy when I was trying to make a decision of what to watch or listen to and rather than rebuking the enemy like I have in the past, I acknowledged the presence and made a decision that I felt was in alignment with my higher self. I chose to listen to the book of Job. One thing that I found interesting in listening to the book of Job is that Job was asking why he had become a target of God, from what I could tell from what I have read so far anyway is that he didn’t even consider that there was an enemy that was causing all of the loss and pain in his life. It is also interesting to note how I believe the enemy used those closest to Job to try to push him to curse God and Job wouldn’t do it. Whether this story is true or not, it is an amazing testament of how we should respond and I would hope that I would be able to be as faithful as Job was to God in the midst of the storms of his life. Even Job didn’t know what he didn’t know. How do we learn what we don’t know? I think it requires us getting a different perspective, seeing what others see and how they think based upon the information they have been given and what they have been taught to think. How do we destroy the kingdom of satan here on earth? We unite. How do we unite? We have to start thinking critically and I think that starts with peeling back the onion, one layer at a time. Why do I believe what I believe? Who told me that I should think this way? What was their reason for telling me? If the answer is because it’s all they knew based on what they were taught to think, then we have to go to the next layer up. Who taught that person to think this way? What was their reason? For many of those questions in my life the answers are because that’s what they were taught. Who wants to keep us divided? The enemy? How does he do that? Have you watched or listened to anything mainstream lately, radio, tv, movies, etc? How do we get more people to join the army of God and to go up against the enemy? I believe that we have to find common ground that we reach through each one of us learning how to think. I think that we need to have discussions with each other rather than arguments. I believe by having discussions we can show others that we care about how they think. I certainly do not have this all figured out but I’m ready to have more discussions with people from all different walks of life and I will do my best to show those people the love of God. Will you join God’s army and share His love with others to help bring down the kingdom of satan and set the captives free? -A humble warrior in God’s army
“Set your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth.” -Colossians 3:2 ESV
Our Father, who art in Heaven, hallowed by Thy Name. Thy Kingdom come, Thy will be done on earth as it is in Heaven. Give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our debts as we forgive our debtors. Lead us not into temptation and deliver us from evil, for Thine is the Kingdom and the power and the glory forever and ever, Amen. -The Lords prayer
Good morning God. Thank You for all of the amazing thoughts and ideas You are revealing to me and how You are allowing me to be more aware of Your presence in my life and showing me as I look back throughout my life that You were always there, even at times where I didn’t want You to be present. Thank You Lord, praise You Lord, bless You Lord! Thank You for this journey, for coming alongside me and comforting me as I learn that the majority of what I have been taught and the things that learned throughout my life were partial truths, at best. Please be with me as I share some of what you’re revealing to me on this public platform. I ask that I’m able to be clear in what it is that I’m trying to share and that You are honored in all that I do. In Your holy, mighty and precious Name, Amen.