Jesus, I ask that if there is anything You would like me to share today, that it would burn within me until I get it out the way You want it shared, here on this public platform. I thank You for the rest You provided me last night and for waking me up with breath in my lungs this morning. Thank You for all of the blessings You continue to provide for us; a safe place to live, plenty of food to eat, and a good job that allows my wife to stay home to homeschool our girls. I thank You for always hearing me and knowing what I need before I even ask. I dedicate this day to You, Lord. Help me with everything I say and do to glorify You! I ask for Your super natural presence as I write this post and that I only share what you want me to share. I ask that You would strike anything else from my memory that is untrue or that You don’t want me to share as I write this post. Thank You, Jesus! Praise You, Lord! Bless You, Lord Jesus! All these things I ask in Your Name. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.
It’s been a crazy past few weeks, since my last post. While I don’t believe that I’ve claimed to know it all or really even know anything, this post is going to be humbling. Even though I now know where to go to find peace, it can still be stressful at the moment especially when we’ve been running a lean staff of 4 people at my job in our customer-facing office while we should easily have 7-8 to handle the daily volume that goes through our office. Also, my younger brother was visiting from Michigan with my parents this past week and I was reminded that he was put in my life for a reason and that the lesson will continue until the lesson is learned. I’m better at loving him from afar rather than being able to love on him when he is near, so I tried to change some of that and apologize to him that I haven’t always been a good older brother. There have been many times that I didn’t show love and support to him, nor did I seek to understand him, in fact, I would judge him rather than love and support him. I know that things won’t change overnight, but as I share with others that we need to show the love of Jesus, I was convicted that I don’t do such a good job of that with even my immediate family. And then I ended up in the ER this past weekend due to some uncontrollable pain from a muscle spasm that was most likely caused by stress. The following morning I woke up to hear the news that my youngest brother, who was still in Michigan had some sort of life-threatening accident and that he was in the ICU and there were very few details as to what actually happened. Praise be to God that today, while we still do not have all of the answers as to what happened, he is doing better than the Dr. expected him to be at this time. I still have a long way to go, I don’t have anything really figured out, but I’m realizing that this spiritual awakening process that I am going through is more of a journey rather than a destination. It is much easier to remember where my strength comes from when everything is going relatively smooth in my life, it is definitely more of a challenge when there is stress added to my life. I feel like I’m being tested, my faith is being tested, and I am being reminded that there is more in my life that I need to surrender to God. I hope and pray that I learn these lessons soon so we can move on to some new lessons. I want to get back to destroying the kingdom of satan, brick by brick. -A humble warrior in God’s army
“Surely he has borne our griefs and carried our sorrows; yet we esteemed him stricken, smitten by God, and afflicted. But he was pierced for our transgressions; he was crushed for our iniquities; upon him was the chastisement that brought us peace, and with his wounds we are healed. All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned-every one-to his own way; and the Lord has laid on him the iniquity of us all.” -Isaiah 53:4-6 ESV
Our Father in Heaven, holy is Your Name. Your Kingdom come to us, Your will be done through us, on earth as it is in Heaven. Give us this day our daily bread, everything that we need for today, to trust that You have already provided it for us and not to worry about tomorrow. I ask that You forgive our sins as we forgive those who sin against us. Lead us away from temptation and deliver us from the enemy. For Yours is the Kingdom, and the power, and the glory forever and ever, Amen. -The Lord’s prayer paraphrased