Friday 5/28/21 – Impostor

Good evening. It has been awhile again and once again a lot has happened since my last entry. By sharing what I’m learning with others and by instructing my 5 & 10 year old little girls on how to surrender to God and resist the devil I’m learning more. I’m learning that I do not know it all and I will never know it all. That bugger got me again. I thought I had been doing a good job of submitting and surrendering to God, resisting the devil and causing him to flee from my presence but I must have let my guard down, ever so slightly. My youngest daughter had a kindergarten graduation event this last Wednesday and there was another event later that same day/night where the church program our children attend was ending for the school year. I made the decision that due to being short staffed at work lately and I already came in late one morning this week due to a dentist appointment that I was not going to be attending the graduation event. Later that night I was supposed to go to a small group that I have been attending. Due to the short staff at work and my work piling up, I’ve felt the need this whole last week to fall back into an old and familiar pattern of not getting out of work when I should to be able to spend some much needed time with my family. This is all very true and the enemy loves it because I don’t believe he uses ridiculous and unbelievable events to convince us to do something (I believe the Holy Spirit uses the ridiculous and unbelievable at times to get our attention). The tactics the devil uses aren’t lies in and of themselves but he uses the reality of events to plant seeds surrounding the events that makes us see them in a negative fashion verses how we can overcome the situation by submitting and surrendering to God. I decided that because my friend/co-worker wasn’t going to small group either as he was also feeling overwhelmed that I would use that as an opportunity to get to my kids church event. You may have guessed by now, I didn’t make it to that either. Weeks ago my 10 year old shared something with me that was extremely profound to me and something I needed to learn to prepare me for this past week. “Dad, I think that sometimes satan pretends to be Jesus.” I said, that’s interesting, tell me more… “Well, sometimes I think I listen to the things he tells me are going to be good ideas and after I do something that I probably know I shouldn’t do, sometimes I thought Jesus was shaming me for doing wrong but I don’t think that’s Jesus, Dad… I think that satan sometimes pretends to be Jesus.” As she was telling me about this she displayed it right in front of me by using a voice that is enticing and gets us to do something that sounds like it would be good, then she got down on the ground and army crawled under the bed and when she popped up on the other side she was shaking her finger and saying “shame on you, you know better than that, why would you do that?” I couldn’t have said it better myself, except I didn’t realize that was happening, not to that extent at least. My little girl has the Holy Spirit in her, she’s still human so like me she is not perfect but when she is glowing with the Holy Spirit and “she” speaks, profound words are sure to follow. So much going on, I should get back to daily entries, maybe… -A humble warrior in God’s army

Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. -James 4:7 ESV

Our Father who art in Heaven, hallowed be Thy Name. Thy Kingdom come, Thy will be done, on earth as it is in Heaven. Give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our debts as we forgive our debtors. Lead us not into temptation and deliver us from evil for Thine is the Kingdom and the power and the glory forever and ever, Amen. -The Lords prayer

Thank You Lord, praise You Lord, bless You Lord Jesus. Thank You for taking me by my hand, leading, guiding and directing on what to say, who to say it to you and when to say it. Thank You for leading me to the answers rather than just giving them to me. I thank you for the managers in my life that wouldn’t just give me the answer when I’ve asked but rather led me to where to find the answers, to equip me with knowing where to find the answers rather than just giving an answer to me so that I would have to go to them for the next answer. Thank You Lord Jesus, in Jesus’ Name, Amen.