Saturday 5/1/21 – You’re all I need

Father God, You are all I need. When we fully surrender and put God 1st I believe that our relationships with others are more clearly defined and helps us balance our life. For so long I was extremely out of balance in all areas of my life. I would have told you that I was a Christian if you asked but it is clear to me now that I was only going through the motions. Fake it until you make it? If you would have followed me around for a few days it would have been revealed that I had no idea what I was doing. My life was so out of balance and chaotic. I prayed to God when I’d remember to do so, it was obviously not a priority. I worked ridiculous hours that no one but myself required of me, as my career is where I found my sense of self worth. Due to the amount of hours I worked, I was exhausted when I would finally return home and I had very little and often times nothing left to give. I didn’t want to talk to my wife about my day, I didn’t want to hear how her day was unless she could wrap it up into a nice concise package with an ending. Chronological order was necessary otherwise I’d get lost, confused and then upset because I wasn’t totally focusing on her, I’d be checking social media and have so many other things going through my head that when I’d check in to let her know I was “listening” it was obvious to her that I was not. I did not want to be found out. I would lie to myself thinking she didn’t know that I wasn’t fully engaged. I would blame it on her and her style of story telling that wasn’t easy for anyone to follow. We would then plug into a TV show or movie and start the whole crazy cycle all over again the next day. I was so hard to love but God’s love never ceased, He just waited patiently for me to come to Him. I was an extremely selfish person, my needs were all I could think about. How will this benefit me? I’d say win-win or no deal but I had no idea what that truly meant but I’m learning. Lord, You are so good, thank You for loving me when I was unlovable to most. Let me be the beacon of light on the hill that helps guide many to Jesus, the Way, the Truth and the Life. -A humble warrior in God’s army

“Praise the Lord! Oh give thanks to the Lord, for He is good, for His steadfast love endures forever!” -Psalm 106:1 ESV

Our Father, who art in Heaven, hallowed be Thy Name. Thy Kingdom come, Thy will be done, on earth as it is in Heaven. Give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our debts as we forgive our debtors. Lead us not into temptation and deliver us from evil, for Thine is Kingdom and the power and the glory forever and ever, Amen. -The Lords prayer.

Thank You Lord, praise You Lord, bless You Lord. Thank You Lord Jesus for not only giving me the ideas You do but coming alongside me, allowing me to be vulnerable while sharing my story of what You are doing in my life not only with friends and family but also with complete strangers. Use me Lord, remove my fear of man each and every day Lord. Place a hedge of protection around me, my family, friends and my marriage and remove and destroy the enemy from all around us, Amen.

Published by humblespiritualwarrior

I'm learning how to follow after Jesus and what that looks like. I believe that I have the ultimate teacher leading me through this journey.

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